| Ideas on what to do with my hair! |
[27 Sep 2009|02:52pm] |
Alright, I am at a loss.
I really want to do something to my hair.
All I have done is put a couple highlights in it. Nothing big.
I don't want to dye it some outrageous color. I am still open to suggestions, though.
I'd like a somewhat natural color but still a little bit noticeable.
I have a tan complexion & as much as I would like to have blond hair, I know it wouldn't look very good on me.
I tend to stick with the darker colors but I am thinking of just sticking with my natural hair and getting more blond than I did in these pictures.
Thanks for looking! <3
( When I first put in the highlights )
( A few months after )
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| realization. |
[25 Oct 2007|01:50am] |
optimism < pessimism.
things are bothering me.
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[21 Oct 2007|03:12pm] |
i tore my ligament, in my right leg.
sweet.
november 4th, is almost here.
that is sorta' getting to me.
one day at a time.
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[04 Oct 2007|09:42am] |
it's been one year since my mom's accident.
i miss & love you, mommy.
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[18 Sep 2007|09:39pm] |
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um.
yeah. not much has been going on, lately.
i'm sick. again.
i finally had my first EPHS meeting.
tomorrow i am going to see my TB test results & i am going to my therapist appointment.
uh. probably going to hang out with joey on thursday if i don't feel like shit.
jason on friday & saturday.
dani? rosanna? natasha!
how eventful.
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[27 Aug 2007|04:34pm] |
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life has been interesting. i got rid of all the "friends" that were bringing me down. i'm starting to get back to normal, slowly but surely. i've gotten a lot closer to my family, mainly my sister, my brother, & my cousin.
my dad has been seeing a lady. i've honestly lost some respect for him, because it has not even been a year since my mom died, and i think its really irresponsible of him to bring someone into our lives, so shortly after something like this has happened. she has three kids whom are very annoying. two girls 7 & 9, and a boy, 11.
the boy has already stolen from me, which has not given me a good impression of their family, at all. i think they are very rude & misbehaved. the mom doesn't really do anything to discipline them, either. they were over almost everyday, until my brother said something, but now that just limited down to every other day, or so, which is not much better.
i still can't get over how insensitive some people can be. i don't usually pity myself or anything, but damn, its hard to grasp that people can be so heartless.
i will be doing EPHS [homeschooling], for the time being, until October, and then i will re-take the math portion of the CHSPE [california high school proficiency exam], & hopefully be attending LBCC [long beach city college], but next semester. :]
recently, i got & beat the game "Bully" & it was really addictive & good. i recommend it if you are into games like GTA & The Godfather. really good game.
i've been playing a lot of monopoly lately, too. /:
i'm going to start babysitting 3 nights a week & will get about $100 a week, so i am looking forward to that; the money at least.
me & dani are thinking of going down to new york, for the winter, probably after christmas & new years, so we can spend some time with our cousins, there. :] it'll be exciting.
yeah. life is strange. i miss laurence. :[
bye.
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| To whom it may concern. |
[15 Aug 2007|03:26pm] |
To whom it may concern.
This goes out to all of those people that gave me shit when my mom was in the hospital, when she passed away, & after she passed away. [Not directed to only one person]
I think you are a bad friend & a bad human being. None of you have ever had something like this happen to you. Your lives have their ups & downs, & each of you always try to make it sound like yours is the worst, as if it is a competition. I know for a fact that I have never used my mom's death as an excuse, as a guilt trip, as anything negative. For those of you that insist that I made you feel obligated to feel bad for me, fuck you.
The fact that you made it sound like a chore to feel bad for me, sickens me. In my eyes, you hardly have a soul. You even had the balls to tell my best friend "I am going to stop feeling bad for Maria." What kind of person says that? What kind of person wouldn't feel bad for me, in this situation? I'm not saying this to make you pity me, now, but I am speaking in generalities [ If a so called "close friend"'s mom passes away, it is natural to feel bad for them]. We have known each other for such a long time, my mom took care of you, whenever you were over, she was so nice to you, & you decided to talk shit about me, spread rumours about me & guilt trip me, after everything? To me, that is disgusting. The fact that you are happy with your life now, bothers me, as stupid as that sounds. I don't think you deserve happiness, after everything.
You. You're something else. You threatened me, not too long ago. Who the hell does that? You gave me shit on how I made people feel bad for me, I brought up my mom, to get myself out of sticky situations, & that I constantly talked about her in order to get what I wanted. You're stupid. You're a dick. You're pathetic. You're desperate. You obviously don't take other people's feelings into consideration, & believe me, if you starting putting yourself in front of other's, more than you already do, then you're not going to have any friends. Oh wait, that already happened. :]
I NEVER expected this from you. It came out of the blue, and you completely shut me down. You gave me that "you made people feel obligated to feel bad for you, because your mom passed away" shit, and that is what sparked all this writing in the first place. I thought you were a good person, before, but obviously, this is how you really are. You're not a good person, to me. You act like you're such a neutral person & you were for a while, but if this is how you felt the entire time, doing what you did, was not right. If you were in my situation, you wouldn't be as strong as I have been, & when the day does come, that your mom passes away, I hope you realize how much of a bitch you were to me. I never want to talk to you again. I never want to see you again, because you're fake, you're a jerk, & you obviously aren't worth my time.
Who the fuck takes "cosplay" pictures at a dying woman's vigil?
P.S: If you were worried about how to treat me, after all of this, this wasn't the right way.
P.P.S: If you contact me, saying "I'm one of the people, aren't I?" or something, then obviously, you have a guilty consience. You obviously think of yourself, how I just described you.
Now, moving on to the people that helped me throughout this entire thing. These people are actually worth naming. The only reason I didn't name the other's, is because I want them & only them to know who they are.
Jason. You're my best friend. You stuck this out with me through everything. I cherish everything we have together & I never want to lose you. We've had our ups & down, & we get upset at each other sometimes, but it's always over something stupid, that could never break our friendship. I'm glad things are going the way they are, now & I want you to be happy. You never once made me feel bad about myself during my time of mourning & everything, and I appreciate that so much. Thank you for being there for me, through everything, thank you for standing up for me & know that I love you with all my heart.
Nate. You've been such a good friend, and I know that if I needed too, I could talk to you about anything. You're a really good friend & I know that things will work out for you, eventually. You've been there from the start, and I know you're going to stick with me till the end. Even though you're not that affectionate, I know that you'll be there for me, if I need it. Yay mushy mushy stuff. :]
Joey. You helped me through he school year, probably more than anyone else. You were there when I needed to talk, when I needed "Help" on the homework [Haha], & through everything. Even though we just met last year, I'm more of a friend with you, than I am with people I have known all my life. You're an amazing friend & person & I know you're going to be there if I need help, with anything.
Lissa. We've definitely had a crazy friendship, but we always end up back together, after our breaks & fights. I know that you care about me a lot, and I know that things are difficult for you to express, since you live so far away, but I know you're a good person & that if I need help with anything, you're going to be there with open ears.
Ross. Dude, you've gotten me through a lot of bad nights & I can't thank you enough. Soon, we're going to be together & everything is going to good with us. I can't wait till you move here. Everything will be a lot more calm, & situated. I love you a lot & I know once you move here, our bond will be much stronger.
There are those of you that have made the effort, on & off or are trying to make it now. I respect all of you, and thank you for being there for me, through everything.
Juan! Thanks for getting my homework & everything else. <3
Alyssa! Thank you.
Sarah! We don't talk that much, but I know you're there for me.
Laurence! I;m glad we're talking again.
Rosanna & Natasha! Thank you.
Dani! We're in it together, whether you like it or not. ):<
P.P.P.S: If this post made it sound like I was trying to make you feel bad for me. I don't care. That was not my goal or anything. I just needed to publicly get this out.
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[25 May 2007|12:08am] |
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Shit. Pirates of the Caribbean owned. :]
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[20 Apr 2007|03:35pm] |
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I'm gone for the weekend. Malibuuu~!
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[10 Apr 2007|07:57pm] |
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What time am I supposed to be at the beach tomorrow? And which Lifegaurd station? WTF? D:
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[08 Apr 2007|10:12am] |
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Happy Zombie Jesus Day.
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[15 Mar 2007|08:21pm] |
Alright, I really think it's time that everyone just SUCKED IT UP.
I'm getting really tired of our "group" getting all butthurt over really stupid shit. It almost seems like you're bored, so you TRY and make drama, because we don't have enough. When things are actually starting to calm down, something always has to go wrong. Why can't everyone just prioritize and be happy with what they have?
I'm really sick of people sending things from instant messages, to over people, too. If I am talking to someone, about someone else, and getting upset, I really expect you to keep that to yourself and not go around going "Look what Maria said about you!" Because if I wanted them to know, then I would be talking to them. Sometimes you just need to get mad. Sometimes you say shit you don't mean.
People don't seem to grasp that I am really unstable right now, either. Little things set me off, little things make me do things that I regret, and little things really get to me. I really want to be happy again, and some of you are making it impossible.
I don't have anyone to baby me anymore, and I look to my friends to do that for me, sometimes. No one seems to care, and sometimes it seems like you're no better than my teachers that think it only takes a fucking semester to get over losing your mom. Well, I'm not over it, and I'm not going to get over it, anytime soon.
I am sick of being caught in stupid drama, that everyone is purposely making. Sorry if you're bored, and need drama in order to make your life interesting, but I really don't need it. I'm really sensitive too, so if you're going to go and say something about me, reconsider it, because I am going to take it the wrong way, honestly.
And don't even think of commenting like this is directed to you. The only reason you would comment on this, and get all bitchy, is because YOU are saying to ME, that this applies to YOU. YOU'LL be admitting that you've done something wrong.
In conclusion, GET THE FUCK OVER IT.
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| Get out your bongo drums. |
[13 Jan 2007|03:35pm] |
I'm sorry for getting upset.
I'm sorry and I want to forget.
I'm sorry for getting ahead.
I'm sorry for saying what I said.
I'm sorry for waiting so long.
I'm sorry that I'm not that strong.
I'm sorry you don't care about me anymore.
I'm sorry for becoming a chore.
I'm sorry I don't appreciate you.
I'm sorry I don't have a better view.
I'm sorry I can't give you what you want.
I'm sorry if sometimes I flaunt.
I'm sorry I was so selfish.
I'm sorry that there are no more memories to cherish.
I'm sorry I couldn't keep you alive.
I'm sorry that you couldn't survive.
I'm sorry that I always get you mad.
I'm sorry that I make you so sad.
I'm sorry that I talk about you sometimes.
I'm sorry I can't think of a word that rhymes.
I'm sorry for ever making you yell.
I'm sorry for making this hell.
I'm sorry for letting you down.
I'm sorry for making you frown.
I'm sorry for making more drama.
I'm sorry for causing any trauma.
I'm sorry how I started off the new year.
I'm sorry that I wasn't clear.
I'm sorry for cursing your name.
I'm sorry for not playing your little game.
I'm sorry I didn't pray.
I'm sorry that you took her away.
I'm sorry for ever hurting you.
I'm sorry that I was untrue.
I'm sorry for breaking your heart.
I'm sorry, Im hoping for a brand new start.
Each stanza is directed to one or more people. I'm not a very good poet. Just my apologies; no hard feelings. [In no order: Paisley, Jason, Sammy, Kelly, Lissa, Alicia, Mommy, Papa, Dani, Carrie, Laurence, Juan, Tony, God and whoever it concerns.]
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[01 Jan 2007|10:43pm] |
Happy New Year!
So, after November, I was really excited that maybe everything would come together, and all my friends would start setting their priorities, and realizing what is really important to them, and others. I was hoping the same for my family, but that didn't happen; and it doesn't seem like it is going to happen anytime soon.
I was disappointed with the New Years party, because a few of my friends let me down. Go ahead and say you didn't, but you let me down, and it hurt.
I've never really experienced jealousy before, and I now, I have, first hand. I don't like it, so I already gave up.
I want everyone happy, and if that means staying away from me, then by all means, do it. I don't think that everyone is going to understand what I'm getting at, but don't victimize yourself. Don't even try. Because it's stupid, and unnecessary.
Basically, I'm pretty bummed. I don't respect a lot of people anymore, and I realized that a lot of people are very selfish.
Including me.
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[17 Dec 2006|09:09pm] |
I have some good news, and some bad news is.
The good news is I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Geicco. I got cable!!
The bad news is, the television busted a circut. xD
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[01 Dec 2006|10:18pm] |
Apperantly, I'm a bitch, now.
Whatever. I have had a shitty day,a shitty week, a shitty month, and a shitty year.
Have some consideration, people and think before you do something out of line.
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[14 Nov 2006|11:11pm] |
Well, we have the dates, finally:
My mom's memorial/vigil/rosary, will take place on Thursday, November 16th, at 7:00pm. It will be held at "All Souls Cemetery", in the chapel. If you need information on where that is; message me.
The funeral will be held on Friday, at St. Joseph's church, at 10:30am, and then the procession will continue to "All Souls Cemetery", after wards there will be a reception at my house. Everyone knows where I live; so I don't need to give that out.
Thanks. <3
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[07 Nov 2006|10:11pm] |
Fine.
neko_kagome
(2 Points) My name:
(1 Point) My last name:
(5 Points) Take a stab at my middle name:
(3 Points) Who am I in love with:
(2 Points) Where did we meet:
(2 Points) What kind of car do I drive:
(2 Points) where do I work:
(3 Points) what am I afraid of:
(2 Points) Do I smoke:
(3 Points) Do I drink:
(2 Points) Do I have any siblings:
(2 Points) How many:
(1 Point) Do I like 'em:
(4 Points) What's one of my favorite things to do:
(2 Points) How many piercings do I have:
(3 Points) What's my favorite type of music:
(4 Points) Am I shy or outgoing:
(3 Points) Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
(2 Points) what’s my favorite color:
(3 Points) name something I hate:
(4 Points) name a talent I have:
(4 Points) what kind of sneakers do I wear:
(4 Points) do I have any pets:
(2 Points) Who am I dating right now:
(5 Points) how long have I been dating them:
(5 Points) what is the color of my room:
(5 Points) what is my worst habit:
(5 Points on creativeness) If I were stranded on a desert island, what would I bring:
I'll reply with your score once it's graded. Comments screened, stalkers' names edited in here to show off how much they know.
80-85 Points; Stalker Extraordinaire!
70-79 Points; Hard-Working Stalker
40-69 Points; Decent Stalker
20-39 Points; Stalker-In-Training
00-19 Points; Crappy Stalker or New Stalker
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[04 Nov 2006|10:07pm] |
I love you, mommy. :]
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I don't understand how after this weekend, anyone should be complaining.
Half of our "group" went to Knotts Berry Farm with EMI. She came all the way down here, to hang out with everyone.
Then, a bunch of people went to PMX, had a GREAT time, and had a LOT of fun.
And then comes Monday night, and everyone's lives are terrible again.
:\ I spent my weekend in a hospital. Next to my mom.
I'm spending Halloween in a Hospital, next to my mom. Along with Thanksgiving, Christmas, and Easter too. She did good throughout the weekend, so I had an AWESOME weekend. :3
So everyone needs to get their priorities straight. If something or someone is bugging you,constantly, get rid of it.
I'm not mad, just tired of everyone complaining. So everyone needs to cool it, and think about what really matters to them.
;o; I miss everyone, by the way. If you want, you can stop by the hospital whenever. Run it by me first though. <3
Have a good Halloweeeeeeen. Take pictures.
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